i don't know

Does anyone else ever feel like they just don't know what is going on, what to do, where they are going, what to expect, or what they should be looking for. This is how I feel right now.

I went to the doctor yesterday and he told me that I could go into labor any day now. I thought this would make me more excited. I mean I am excited to finally meet my little one, but I definitely have a lot of other emotions as well.

I keep reading articles on how to recognize active labor... I am so lost. How do you know the difference between Braxton hicks contractions and real ones, am I timing the right contractions, will my water break or not.... I just have so many questions.

When I am not worrying about being in labor I am stressing out about the fact that the nursery isn't done and our house looks more like a storage unit than a home. A couple months ago when I thought of bringing our little girl I had a vision of how our home would be finished, clean, and organized. I don't think it will be like that.

I also worry about being a good mom. Will I know what to do? Will I be able to nurse? Will I get her on a good sleep cycle? Will I know what to do when something is wrong? Will I spoil her too much?

I am sure a lot of moms can relate to all my worries. I just wish there was clear answers or a manuel to help.

For all those who are lost like me, whether it is being a first time parent, school decisions, career choices, relationships, family things, or whatever know you are not alone.

Even though I don't have all the answers I know I can find comfort in my Heavenly Father, my parents, family, and friends. I also find comfort in knowing that everything will work out how it is supposed to and things will be ok.